Incoherent Babble

Remember those long summers in elementary school where all you had to do every day was lay around and watch TV for hours on end? What about those in middle and early high school when you were just starting to get the ability to go out and do things on your own?

Well, I’ve worked and gone to school at the same time for… 5 years now. At times, it’s been a bit rough, and I’ve had to make some hard choices along the way (ones that I hope I won’t come to regret in the future). Since all the schools around here (public, private, high er ed, you name it) are out in the summer months, summer time has always been a time of relaxation, in which I was free to focus solely on work, just like everyone else in the world. After high school, it was also a nice time to kick back and relax with my friends, who were home from schools near and far.

Unfortunately, this was obviously too good a thing, and heaven forbid anything good or positive should go on in my life too long unchecked…

My summer “vacation” has utterly fallen apart this year. Not only is there a big project at work right now, but I also have the pleasure of taking a course this summer to help pick up some extra credits towards an earlier graduation.

It’s bad enough that I have to think about school during the summer, but to add insult to injury; it’s also a “real” course, requiring that I take time out of my already busy day to attend a largely useless and boring class (2 hours every Tuesday and Thursday). Fortunately, I took the morning class, so it just takes time away form work. This helps keep me from being in class until 10:00 one night a week. Since my boss was the one that told me I had to go to school, I figured it was only fair that I take the class on his time.

Now, to top everything else off, I don’t even get to see my best friend all summer. Maggie left earlier this week for California. She is going to be staying with her aunt and babysitting for the next three months, and I’ll be back here all alone.

Now I knew deep inside that this day would eventually come. I know several people who are already rooming with friends during the summer months, just so they don’t have to go back home and can go ahead and start setting up their own lies. I guess I just never wanted to think about my closest friends doing something like that. I really don’t like change, and having to adjust my daily life to varying circumstances, and for years now I’ve had these friends to hang out with multiple nights a week. Now that they’re starting to disappear, I’m just not sure what to do with myself or my time…

I guess it’s just time to totally throw myself into my code again and try to get some things accomplished before school starts back up full swing in the fall. It’s not like I’ve got a shortage of personal (or work, for that matter) projects to complete, it just seems so sad to come home every night and sit in front of a computer endlessly writing lines and lines of code.

Oh well, I guess it’s time for me to get some sleep. If anyone has any brilliant suggestions on how to improve my life right now, please let me know!

Who knows? I guess I could meet some hot geeky chick in my nerd Networking class this summer and be working towards a wedding by this time next year. Boy I hate that disgusting “bright side” optimism crap…